Thursday, February 3, 2011

Day 414

So I have been in a rut, and part of it was caused by the tough love comment I got on my last post here. (I just published it, so you'll have to go back to the last blog entry to see it). I don't know this person, and I do appreciate her taking the time to comment. And I'm not sure she's saying anything that I don't need to hear, but instead of embracing the challenge, I get defensive and then depressed when I get comments like that. So it started/contributed to the funk I'm in, but it does give me food for thought and certainly has been on my mind for the last few weeks.

I'm tired of this - which is just too bad. I'm tired of always always always having to debate over what I put in my mouth. I just want to not have to think, and just enjoy what I want to. I know that's impossible, I really do know that. It's just hard, and constant constant constant... I know, I know, I'm whining. I need to keep telling myself that Rome wasn't built in a day, and last year I accomplished the goal of losing 50 pounds and keeping it off for the year. So, maybe this year that should be my goal again - another 50 pounds and keeping it all off til this time next year.

I have made two tiny changes this week - I've been bringing in clementines for snacks at work, and I bought a veggie tray for munching on at dinnertime. It's true what they say - if the veggies are there, you'll be more likely to eat them - not only have I been eating them, but my daughter has too (my son is being a food curmudgeon)...

I don't know - anyone have any suggestions for inspiring initiative?