Day 401

So...not so good with these resolutions... haven't been blogging, haven't been walking (not even wearing my pedometer every day), haven't been keeping food logs...  Why is it so hard to motivate? I don't feel good - on the other hand, I don't feel horrible, which is probably part of the problem. It's easier to motivate when you are at rock bottom, and need to do SOMETHING to move in the right direction. It's harder to motivate when things are just okay, not horrible. Of course, by any objective standards I am still in a "horrible" place physically - still at about 330 pounds. I keep telling myself that I've been able to keep 50 pounds off now for about a year, which is good. But now I need to tackle the next 50 pounds. And I do feel like my body is sort of, vaguely, calling out in some very small way, that it wants to exercise... WHAT?? What was that? It can't be true... that's unheard of in my body! So now it's a question of actually MOVING and fitting it into the schedule. And meal planning. I need to figure out meal planning.

There goes a list. The ongoing list that keeps running and running and growing. One thing at a time. Okay, for the next two weeks, the goal is to figure out how to fit in some exercise, somewhere. Keep trying to eat decently, but let's focus on the movement. Sigh.

Day 384

A new year, a new start! Weight has been gained, steps have been reduced, (much!) food has been eaten...but it's a new day and a new year, and it's time to refocus and get back on track. I spent much of the weekend cleaning out the kids' rooms and closets, but I still have to "de-deck" the house from the holidays, and tonight is the alma mater playing in the Orange Bowl, which necessitated the ordering of pizza, but otherwise, it's a new day and we're trying again! I actually was quite good today food-wise, and wore my pedometer for the first time in a while. Only got to about 3500 steps, but I have to start somewhere. I think the exercise is (again) going to be the biggest challenge - both motivation and finding/making time. The husband got up at 6 this morning to work out - very impressive - and I need to use that as motivation. Perhaps another 5K to work towards in March or April...?