Day 401

So...not so good with these resolutions... haven't been blogging, haven't been walking (not even wearing my pedometer every day), haven't been keeping food logs...  Why is it so hard to motivate? I don't feel good - on the other hand, I don't feel horrible, which is probably part of the problem. It's easier to motivate when you are at rock bottom, and need to do SOMETHING to move in the right direction. It's harder to motivate when things are just okay, not horrible. Of course, by any objective standards I am still in a "horrible" place physically - still at about 330 pounds. I keep telling myself that I've been able to keep 50 pounds off now for about a year, which is good. But now I need to tackle the next 50 pounds. And I do feel like my body is sort of, vaguely, calling out in some very small way, that it wants to exercise... WHAT?? What was that? It can't be true... that's unheard of in my body! So now it's a question of actually MOVING and fitting it into the schedule. And meal planning. I need to figure out meal planning.

There goes a list. The ongoing list that keeps running and running and growing. One thing at a time. Okay, for the next two weeks, the goal is to figure out how to fit in some exercise, somewhere. Keep trying to eat decently, but let's focus on the movement. Sigh.