Thursday, September 2, 2010
Day 264
So yesterday went well!! I actually hit 10,000 steps - all from walking around the house (let's just say there was a LOT of cleaning that had to happen on an emergency basis - not going to say why because you will all be creeped out!) But then I had to leave the house for a few hours, and really struggled with myself about where to go hang out and have lunch. I almost chose Panera because I knew they had free wireless and are right next to the dry cleaner where I needed to go too...but I convinced myself that the convenience of parking the car once wasn't worth the struggle it would be to resist the temptation of all their pastries and yummy sweet bready things. So I went to Cosi, and had a good salad and whole grain bread (and discovered they have free wifi too!) Went to Starbucks and returned to my "treat" beverage, a skinny vanilla latte, which is skim milk and sugar free vanilla syrup, so only the calories of the milk - this was a change too, since I've recently slipped back into having the regular vanilla syrup (with the calories and the sugar), or even (horrors!) a mocha with hot chocolate mixed into the coffee! Then there was the debate about what to eat for dinner - there was a Chipotle just down from the Starbucks (again, not having to move the car and park somewhere else), but I knew that even if I got a burrito bowl, I'd be tempted by the rice and cheese...so I went to Subway for a turkey sub, only 6 inches when I used to order a 12 inch (and not be hungry to finish it, but end up eating it all anyway!) So, I know that all this minutia may be boring, but it's just reflective of the fact that this is a CONSTANT moment-to-moment struggle and no amount of planning and forethought can alleviate all of the debate with yourself about whether to stay on track or allow slight (or major!) deviations.
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Thank you so much for your sweet comments! I love how you made me think about the fact that I've basically maintained for the past 6-8 months, when in the past I would have steadily gained! :) And, you are so right when you say "I know that all this minutia may be boring, but it's just reflective of the fact that this is a CONSTANT moment-to-moment struggle and no amount of planning and forethought can alleviate all of the debate with yourself about whether to stay on track or allow slight (or major!) deviations".
ReplyDeleteWe are doing this! May not be in the timing or the way we thought we would, but in the end we ARE doing it! :)
Amen to that. The thoughts of "I could have this *insert empty calories here* instead of that *healthy thing* always come, no matter how long you've been good. At least making the decision seems to become slightly easier with practice.
ReplyDeleteThen again, there are those intense moments where resistance is almost impossible.
Sounds like you're doing great!
You go, girl! One day at a time, one step at a time, one bite at a time.
ReplyDeleteAmazing how much effort it takes to be mindful of all of this!
Terri